So this will be a fairly short and to-the-point blog post.

Not with ill will or anything of that nature, but just expressing my opinion. Letting you all know why, I believe, I do what I do. 

You see after being saved “last year” God opened my eyes, ears & mind. But before I was saved I had to repent first. What did I repent of you ask?

I stopped in the living room of my families former house in San Francisco as I believe I was walking back from the bathroom and felt a thought hit my brain about me making my ex get Plan B abortion pills a few years back. I stopped in my tracks, almost broke down in tears and felt deep remorse within my heart.

I kept trying to plead with God to forgive me. Or as some & God may say…repent.

This episode happened I believe months before I was baptized and saved.

Even now when I think about all the kids I forced my ex to kill it makes me cry and I can barely speak on it. It hurts that bad!

But repenting of that sin to God brought forgiveness of not just that sin, but all others I committed in my life when I was baptized a month or so later.

You see it’s not just about being baptized that matters to God. We ALL have to confess our sins to God in order to truly be baptized thereafter. And it’s not a half-hearted apology as I truly felt convicted in my heart – and still do – thinking about forcing my ex to take those pills. Or pushing her to take them I should say as I didn’t force them down her mouth.

So before you label me a monster or even that recent Florida school shooter a monster be careful. Because we could both very well be servants of Christ and his elect.

How could the Florida school shooter be an elect of God after killing all those people you ask or how could I even after killing my unborn children?

Good question.

Repentance is the answer. 

When your sins are fresh in your mind or truly sting like that of the Florida shooter as everyone I’m sure is coming down on him, he may feel utterly guilty sitting in his small cell. Receiving tons and tons of hate mail by the day.

If he knows God and/or Jesus, this is a good thing. A Great thing!

Because the hate that he is receiving from all sides may push him to repent to God for his wrongdoing by taking so many lives. Truly repent as the hate he is receiving is unbearable and now he is confined to a cell to truly think about his actions.

So what just happened there? Did you see that?!

Those people bashing the Florida shooter actually just did him a favor. They pushed him to Christ. They pushed him to repentance. And what is after repentance…baptism.

So what I am trying to say here is that we are all sinners. You can yell & scream at that school shooter for killing all those kids or bash me for forcing my ex to kill our unborn kids and that is fine. But just know that Romans 3:23 stands true.

for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God,

So instead of sitting here focusing on my sins or the sins of others I suggest you make sure you have truly repented and been baptized by the blood of Christ. Or else you may be the one getting condemned to an eternity in hell on judgement day.

Hey, I’m just saying.

When people come after me and I don’t directly attack them, I worry more about their condition with Christ than my own.

Because doesn’t The Bible remind us of a very important fact as to distinguish between Real and fake “Christians:”

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.

-Matthew 5:9

I argued with 3 “Christians” a while back and not one stepped in to make peace of the situation until after the event was over as it was 3 against 1 or 2 I should say since I count The Holy Spirit within me as another person.

Makes you wonder, huh?

Look I am here to do a job just like every other True Christian out their. Heck those who aren’t True Christians have a job to do as well. It’s just we both are under the control of 2 different bosses. Though my boss has the utmost control.

Just keeping it Real.

I am not here to boast, but defend myself. Defend God and others who may be persecuted as well.

There is a mystery to The Bible that I’ve found Very interesting after being saved. A mystery that is Very intriguing indeed!

Don’t believe me?

A message from Paul:

Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains.

-Colossians 4:2-3

I’ve seen mystery pop up more than once since I’ve been studying The Bible these past few months after being saved.

This next passage referencing “the mystery” got me TOO EXCITED, but I don’t know if it’s true yet, so I’ll just wait on God.

Another message of Paul:

 Now I rejoice in what I am suffering for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is still lacking in regard to Christ’s afflictions, for the sake of his body, which is the church. 25 I have become its servant by the commission God gave me to present to you the word of God in its fullness— 26 the mystery that has been kept hidden for ages and generations, but is now disclosed to the Lord’s people. 27 To them God has chosen to make known among the Gentiles the glorious riches of this mystery, which is Christ in you, the hope of glory.

-Colossians 1:24-27

Did you READ THAT?!! Like I said, I don’t want to get too excited yet.

But the fact that God chooses certain people to reveal the truth of Scripture. To reveal the truth of Jesus!

You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit–fruit that will last–and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you

-John 15:16


For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love

-Ephesians 1:4


14 For many are called, but few are chosen.

-Matthew 22:14

Alright, my bad for all the Scripture references, but I just got a little excited that’s all.

I mean I’ve felt pretty lowley almost my whole entire life. I’ve been in a bunch of fights (never won any), kicked out the house, felt second to my younger brother at pretty much everything and held resentment towards him, played by countless girls, cheated on,  struggle holding down a job and get pushed over because I am the quite, “soft” guy who says “sorry” too much apparently.

But to think that little old Ibsaa could be one of God’s chosen ones to spread the truth about Jesus brightens my entire mood!

So we shall see…

I mean James 1:9-10 has definitely been a source of motivation these past few months and years seeing people “excel” in life over me who have maybe more money or more talents than I.

Believers in humble circumstances ought to take pride in their high position.10 But the rich should take pride in their humiliation—since they will pass away like a wild flower.

-James 1:9-10

If I am not one of God’s chosen ones it’s okay. I will just keep pushing as I tell God most days I just want to make it to heaven and do His will on earth. That is satisfying enough to me.

But again we shall see what the future holds.

I will continue to stay close to God as I’ve been doing. But so many things pop out to me as I read the Word now with a whole new understanding.

Last two things I will say are one, I would be careful to curse or bash that Florida shooter any longer because like I said earlier, he could very well repent in that prison cell. Following that, he could be baptized in his cell as well then in which case…

38 Peter replied, “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.

-Acts 2:38

Well how would God hear you anyways if you curse the kid? Good question, but I have a better answer.

Do not revile the king even in your thoughts, or curse the rich in your bedroom, because a bird in the sky may carry your words, and a bird on the wing may report what you say.

-Ecclesiastes 10:20

Well so what if God hears me curse the kid and a bird carries my message! What then?

Let’s just say that it will be prettier for Sodom and Gomorrah on the day of judgement than for you.

But this post isn’t to scare, but to warn against those who feel that they can attack anyone they choose – young or old. Remember that Jesus was “about thirty years old when he began his ministry.” (Luke 3:23)

My last point is that The Bible makes an interesting point that I will leave you with. After Jesus began His ministry, the teachers of the law weren’t just losing members to Jesus because of the authority in Christ’s voice, but something else as well.

The people were all so amazed that they asked each other, “What is this? A new teaching–and with authority! He even gives orders to impure spirits and they obey him.”

-Mark 1:27

A “new teaching” huh?! Interesting.

Hey, I’m no devil here or anything but if I were Satan who might I want to use most on the earth? A person with influence. Definitely a leader. Someone who people seek in times of trouble.

Who does that sound like to you? A pastor maybe?

I’ll leave that alone for now.

But a “new teaching” makes you wonder if God is saving his special, “mystery” message for His chosen ones to preach.

I mean He did say in Matthew 20:16:

16 So the last shall be first, and the first last: for many be called, but few chosen.

That is all I am saying for now. Have a Good Night and last, last thing. My faith is real and I have receipts.

Take Care