Today was the day. Today is the day.
Today is the day I left my church here in San Francisco, California.
You want to know the reason why? Well it’s because I didn’t feel I was getting what I needed from the church I had been going to this past year. What was it I needed, you ask? Another Great question.
I needed love and to feel as if I was a valued family member.
I didn’t feel that at the church I had been going to. It felt like people at my church cared more about your circumstances than your mind. I believe God cares more about your mind than your circumstances.
I am not a CEO of a major corporation, an engineer, a lawyer or a doctor, but I am a child of God. Shouldn’t that be enough?!
Well if it is I didn’t feel that it was so at my church.
So I left.
It wasn’t by my own choosing though. I have been reading my Bible a chapter a day, trying my best to embrace and listen to God. Also trying hard to stay away from sin.
I wanted to hear God loud and clear with no static or break in signal. I needed to hear God. This was a Really Big decision I would be making. I know leaving church is one thing, but I felt like I was leaving God too. I mean the church is the bride and the body of Christ.
But I’m not leaving church for good. Just this church.
I know no church is perfect, but I’ve found another church down the street that God seems to be leading me to. Funny enough, it’s on the same block from where I grew up as a child and on the same street from my first school here in San Francisco. Would you look at that?
So we will see what comes of this new church. The church I’m leaving had a good amount of people my age; this new church doesn’t. It’s mainly people over 50 and teenagers. So we will see what God does with me here.
I felt a lot of love and community after visiting the church this past weekend. They gave me what I had been longing for. Not having any family like that that I’m close to out West has me desiring a spiritual family. And this church gave me a sense from just visiting once that they would give me that.
I hope to lead a group at this new church and step into that role as I do believe ministry may be my calling. I’m heading to Fuller Seminary tomorrow to check out the campus and classes, so we will see what comes from that.
I wouldn’t mind leading a teens group or younger to start. Wherever they see fit for me.
But yeah, that’s where I’m at. It’s a Big Decision and though you may think I’m sad and scared to be leaving my old church and all the friendships within it, I’m not.
I never really found anyone I truly connected with. Don’t get me wrong, they are all Great people who love the Lord and who God loves too. By no means is this a bash of them or their church. I just needed something different in this season of my life and I felt lead to another church.
So we will see what happens in the coming weeks after making it known today in my men’s group that I would no longer be meeting with them and would be leaving to join this new church down the street. Also going to Fuller tomorrow. We will see what comes of that as well.
As I was getting ready for my last men’s group at church this morning, I looked up on my board in my room that has Bible verses on it and other pictures and things that encourage me, I saw Galatians 5:22-23 – “The Fruit of The Spirit.”
I have been talking on this for a while now in other blog posts and mentioned character qualities I want to have that it lists like kindness, gentleness, self-control and so forth. But today another charactistic popped up that stood out to me.
That characteristic listed in Galatians 5:22-23 is Peace. And that’s how I’m feeling now after just telling all the guys in my men’s group that I will no longer be with them and moving on from the church.
I feel at peace.
It’s time to begin this new journey with Christ and I’m ready!
“Thank you Lord. I know I made the right decision. Please guide me Lord as to what it is you want me to do next with my life. In Jesus name, Amen.”